Today, today as I write this, probably not today when I publish this, right now, I am having emotions . This is a fairly normal thing, right? We're living breathing animals, we have emotions. However, I find it confusing. Some emotions I've managed to more or less pin down: dreading, pleased, frustrated, comfortable, neglected, some others. But many others, I don't truly understand, they are vague and nebulous, just a... feeling, that's affecting me in some way. As I write this, I'm trying to focus on the emotion I'm going through. It feels tense. It has elements of frustration. I'm also a bit tearful. More than anything, though, I feel disconnected, that I've broken free of my moorings, that my brain isn't tied particularly closely to reality. It's unsettling. It's not a feeling of physical disconnection, or disembodiment - I'm fortunate enough not to suffer with that - but more that sensory perception is almost overwhelmingly magnifi...
Autistic adult, abuse survivor, tea enthusiast, attempting occasionally to describe what living in the world is like. There seems to be a lack of voice for people like me, with autism overwhelmingly treated as a childhood 'disease', so I'd like to make a small effort to correct that.